“I’m a convert and the only active member in my family. People in my ward seem think I’m just the perfect LDS teenage girl with such a strong testimony. They’re right to an extent, but I’m far from perfect. I’m not chaste, infact I really want to have sex with my boyfriend, but I can’t because I’d be eaten alive by guilt for committing such a serious sin. I hate it. It makes me wish I wasn’t religious at all. I could be ignorant of the law of chastity restriction. I hate how every time I promise I’ll be more chaste, I break my promise, and a small part of me knew I was going to break it anyways. There, I said it. “
“I’m not lds but I had an affair with a woman that was born in it. We fell in love…her husband raped her several times while we were together, one time brutally. Why do they shrug that off? She was covered in bruises and he injured her shoulder:(“
I would like to confess, but upon reading your RULES, that all confessions sent via ASK will not be entertained, how am i going to confess if I wanted to be ANONYMOUS?
Well, before you used to be able to log out and submit that way, but upon trying that out a moment ago, it requires an email to submit now? If you are comfortable with an e-mail that is a fine way to do it, but if not please feel free to send a confession via ask and indicate that it is a submission instead of a question! Thanks so much, and sorry about that!
I got fingered by my boyfriend. I know that is a sexual sin, do I need to confess to my bishop?
Did it feel wrong to you to have done something like that? If it felt right, (even after what you have been taught about “sexual sins”) I would say no! It all depends on how you feel, and if you need guidance on what happened. I would even approach a close friend or family member about sorting out the feelings. And obviously, talk to your boyfriend about everything as well!
Really search yourself about it though. it is often taught to woman (not just in the LDS church) that sexuality, and sexual pleasure is wrong, and you are taught to feel guilt, but you don’t have to! It’s natural and not harmful.
Good luck! Hope that was helpful!
So very sorry!
I am so sorry about the giant hiatus! Long story short in bullets!
-I dropped my laptop and killed it’s hard drive >_<
-I moved from one town to another with all that that implies with expenses and otherwise.
-finally was able to afford a new hard drive that got installed.
-I was unable to port any of my data off my last hard drive and lost my programs and templates for everything! *ugly sobbing*
-Working on finals this week for college classes.
-Will update all old confessions and answer questions very soon!
Thanks for your patience everyone! I feel just awful about leaving for so long! *hugs and love to you all*
So I’ve been looking through this blog. And I want to tell all of you who feel worthless, or not good enough or feel like other members are very judgmental etc. First you are not worthless and you are good enough. Like Dieter F Uchtdorf said in the last general conference this church was not made by perfect people therefore there is no perfect people in the church. I know how it feels when it comes to criticism, I can’t stand my ward and I don’t feel like I belong but I go every week for me and my testimony to grow. Not for anyone else. I am so sorry that you feel this way. I really am. If you ever need anything my ask is always ALWAYS open. You are a child of God and He loves you very much. His love for you is unconditional. Please never forget that.
“As a convert, when things get hard for me, there are times I want to numb the emotional pain like I used to with alcohol or painkillers. I don’t do it, but it’s so tempting. I feel like a sinner just for thinking about it though.”
"I’m getting ready to convert. I’ve watched so many negative videos and read so many blogs that attack the LDS church that my final decision for converting is to prove them wrong (at least internally). I want to join to show that all of these things bashing the church are people just being rude and nasty. "
To that person who feels judged for not going on a mission yet/worthiness/feels like a girl will never love you. I'm getting married to my 21 year old non RM in one month. At first he had health issues with depression and then it became a worthiness issue and when he was finally getting better he received revelation and council not to go. Then we met :) don't ever feel less of a priesthood holder. You're awesome. <3
Could you please explain the 1978 Revelation on the Priesthood and why it took so long to reinstate it to all black male members? Because I know the church did ordained blacks, one in particular by the name of Elijah Abel to the office of a Seventy and this was back in 1839. Now something happened in 1852, 8 yrs. after the martyrdom of the Prophet Joseph Smith, which caused a revocation of the priesthood to all black males of the church. This I believe was during the presidency of Brigham Young.
Well, I don’t know all the answers to these sorts of questions, however, I always saw that for the longest time, the church followed along with the majority of society during the Civil Rights Movement and viewed blacks as a “lesser species”, and most likely less holy or acceptable representatives of God. (As that was a popular misconception during the 50s-80’s and even still today in many ways) However, I cannot fully answer why they waited nearly ten years after the end of the Civil Rights Movement, to accept back members into the priesthood again.
Truthfully though, also continuing my thoughts from a American historical standpoint, blacks were not (and are still not) accepted in many facets of society, especially in roles of leadership. A lot of that changed during the “Black Power Revolution” (Right through until the early ’80s) when many blacks pursued acceptance, tolerance, and demanded to be seen as an equal both in everyday society and especially in positions of power and leadership.
Looking through documents though, it is very difficult to see what happened internally with the church to make these decisions on where blacks stood as members and priesthood holders. When I look at the church, I honestly believe that the churches teachings and organization under Joseph Smith, and then later under Brigham Young, were two almost entirely different doctrines.
I am sorry I couldn’t help you answer this question better- I am not an expert on this topic (though you have given me a lot to research and think about in the future.) I learned A LOT of interesting information, just researching “1978 Revelation on the Priesthood”. One thing I kind of liked (though I am not sure of this credibility) was this video trying to explain everything. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gNa-DoWoQgs
I would read some church information (info on this topic is actually on the Mormon.org site) and compare it to other sources of evidence from members, non-members and apostate alike. I find gathering a lot of information and sifting through it is a good way to find some solid answers.
Thank you for your question! It gave me a lot to think about. As a person who does not know much about the churches reinstatement of blacks into the priesthood, I feel poorly that I could not answer you better! However, I do know quite a bit about racism and the bumpy journey that society travels on this road to equality. I hope my information about American History in conjunction with you question helped a little bit though! As far as history goes, I see the Mormon church tends to bend a bit and follow with society a bit more than they lead many to believe. They are often late to the party, but most times, I see the church satiating a lot of hard topics in the long run, and later dismissing the ignorant past as a folklore, ha!
Have a fantastic day, and thank you for your question!